Never have children.😅
Motherhood begins the moment you find out you’re pregnant, and things start to change whether you like it or not. It’s like women are wired to change dramatically as soon as they find out that they’re growing a human being inside of them. Okay that sounded freaky, straight out of a sci-fi movie, but that’s what happens. All of a sudden life isn’t just about you and you start making choices not for yourself but for the tiny person you’ve never met yet. Again, at least it was for me.
A few days ago, “O” and I watched the movie “Bad Moms” and after the movie, he asked me about my Bad Mom moments, at the time, I knew there were many, but I couldn’t think of a particular one that stood out at that moment. So, the next day, as we were in the car on our way home with the kids from school, I asked them about any particular moment when they thought I was being a bad mom. I was surprised I had so many moments! LOL.😂 Talk about my bubble being burst! I never thought I was an amazing mom to begin with, but I never thought I’d be that bad!😱😭 They later on told me that I was a great mom and that despite all my “epic” fails, they wouldn’t want any other Mom.😁 I was like, “Awww, but you guys are jerks”. LOL.😂
So anyway, here’s 2 err 3 memories that really stood out and worthy of a Bad Mom moment title. Not my proudest Mom moments, but like I said, Motherhood is HARD.
That time when I slept and I left Lucas on the floor…
One particular day when Lucas was around 6 months old, just when he was starting to crawl, he was extra fussy and kept crying the whole entire time. I couldn’t get him to nap, I just bathed him and fed him so he doesn’t need a diaper change and he wasn’t hungry, I burped him, I did everything I was supposed to but he just wouldn’t nap. The night before I remember I wasn’t able to sleep well because I had to breastfeed him the entire night just so he would be able to go to sleep. Both my children were purely breastfed until they were 3 and a half years old. I don’t have a helper, I’ve never had a helper, “O” was at work and Chakai was in school, I was alone with the baby at home, so you can imagine how exhausted and frustrated I was because I just couldn’t figure out why he was so fussy! I was so overwhelmed, so I decided to just lay his mats on the floor next to our bed, set him down there and I napped. And what do you know, he self soothed and he was fine.😁 I napped for like an hour and a half while he was on his mat. After that, we were both fine.😂 So yes, I’m a Bad Mom for leaving my baby on the floor while I napped.
That time when I forgot to pick up Chakai…
When Lucas was just a baby, around a few months old and Chakai was in first grade, I forgot that her classes were shortened and she was dismissed by lunch. So I napped with Lucas and woke up around 1pm and then I realized I should have picked Chakai up for school at 11am.😱 So I quickly dressed, dragged Lucas and my ass to get a cab and picked her up like 3 hours later than I’m supposed to.😩
That time when I puked on Lucas…
Once when Lucas was 2 years old, my friends and I had a New Year’s party, I haven’t gone drinking since we planned on getting pregnant with Lucas, but because it was a New Year’s party, “O” said I could drink and although I was breastfeeding at the time, I knew that all I had to do was make sure to express my “bad” milk and it would be fine, and it’s just one time. So, hello Vodka!😁 I got wasted, vodka is a traitor like that, you never know you’re drunk until you’re drunk.😂 So anyway, Lucas sleeps with “O” and I, and in the middle of night, I puked all over Lucas’ back.😂 “O” was quick on his feet though, he moved Lucas out of the way, cleaned both of us up, dressed us, changed the bedsheets and made sure I was done puking before settling down himself. Needless to say, I’ve never had another drink until Lucas turned 6.😂 I’m a terrible Mom!😭
So, why more bad mom moments with Lucas? Simple. Chakai was an easy baby and an easier kid, I’m sure I’ve had bad mom moments with her too, just none that are as bad as these perhaps.😂
Keep your judgments to yourself!😷 Because although these things did happen, I’m not proud of them, what I’m proud of is that despite these moments, my children are good kids. They may not be the smartest or most talented kids, but they truly are great kids, they can be jerks sometimes, but they are my jerks😂, and at the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if people see me as a Bad Mom, what matters to me is that I raise my children to be respectful, kind and God-fearing.😏